STUDYINGGGG

sooo its 2am and i am currently studying for physiology. part of me wanna just go home and go to sleep and vow to try harder next time or cram like i never crammed before..its redic. I REALLYYYYY need to do good this semester but i have problems encouraging myself smh.  huhhhh long night

SUMMER IS OVERRRRR

Summer is over and im officially a Junior in College (woot woot). This summer was challenging to say the least. I fought with my mom all summer long, seriously we get along so well but this was rediculous. I left OP and prob ruined my chances of decipleship but not that bummed about that just because i feel like CO do more damage to my walk  than good. So maybe its better than i will be at a arms lenth with the body, rather than in it and always worried about gossip or what people think of me and my relationship w/ Jesus. other than that i am happy that i ended the summer with Jeremy with a 12 day vacation in florida. I prob will never forget it because it was ahmazingggg. we went to disney parks, busch gardens, miami, ft lauderdale. We went to amazing resturants, everything. And Jeremy was the BESTTTT. He was so sweet and just everything ahhhhhh i love him.! but yeaa after a lot of STRESSSSS about money and classes and where im living. im settling in to my new home for the year which is a hotel. lol very unconventional but im not either so it fits.

Current Faves :o)

 Hi Loves :) so there has been a few things that i have been crazy about lately and i want to share. i think imma do more post like this because i want to experiment with alot of things to just find like my Holy grail products so yeaa will update but here are some currents.

Beauty n Health :

So for a toner and pore minimizer i have started using Dickensons Natural Witch Hazel. its all natural so its pure witch hazel and i just love how it seems to tighten my skin (which i guess minimizes the pores) and gets rid of dead skin around the dry areas on my faces and replenishes it. ive noticed a smoother look also. i use this before i apply makeup and nightly along with my usual face cleaner (clean and clear black head remover) and makeup removal wipes.

So ive ditched the Carmex (lip crack) lol. I love this stuff and it was like 2 bucks. unlike carmex which soon as it dries up it freaking leaves your lips feeling and looking worst than before, it actually penetrates my lips and i feel like i only use it 2 or 3 times a day, well as i was applying carmex 6x a hour. so yeaa i think a good buy.

OmG so i looooove this stuff. its called Define my Curls from the naturally you Motions line. I have went natural with my hair so i love the way this stuff literally defines my curls. i have naturally curly hair but when my hair is dry they turn in to curly fros. This product just eliminates the frizz and keeps it curly. It smells great also. The only downsize is that you have to completely saturate your hair and it leaves your hair feeling a little rough and crunchy. this is like step 2 of the line so im anxious to try all the other products that your supposed to use inline with.

P.S another quick product ive been using but isnt exactly new (just to me) is using Hydrogen peroxide as a teeth whitening agent. i just swish around for 10 mins a day so cant wait to see the outcome. i l have only been doing it for 2 days....

Style and fashion:

so i recently bought some Toms and i love them. there really comfy and idk why but i decided on Navy Blue. I was 2 seconds and 10 dollars away from buying the hot pink ones but i think these are more universal and wearable. I completely buckled down to the fad because i can admit i thought these were butt ugly when they first came out but i like em now. they just kinda grew on me...

I have been on a nail polish frenzy lately. I have decided to just really keep up with my nails because its a simple way to look put together and clean, instead of my usual chipped and need a fill in look. i change my polish every 4 days or 6 if i really like it and vowed to never get my nails professionally done since they ruin my nail beds and are expensive over time. i have really been into neon and matte colors lately

I guess its the young woman tryna break outta my teenagey mindset (im 20 so those days are over) but ive been really into dresses lately. i always, well not always,loved dresses in the club/nightlife sense but ive been into day time sundresses now more than ever. only things is i have long legs so its hard tryna find a balance but yeaaa..

PS. ive been shopping (alot) lately so ive added alot new tops to my closet and i wish i had time and knew how to make a collage of all the new things ive bought. i also have been trying to add different accessories (NOT costume jewelry eww) but just pieces that stand out like cute belts or head scarves so yeaa just kinda wish i had a better eye for those things..also new make-up and actual lipstick(i thought i would NEVER be into lipstick) is some things ive been doing lately.

July 11 2012: MidSummer Update

Sooo its been like a month and alot of things have changed since my last update (almost everything lol). but for starters im home like a month early from OP just because like since Day 1 things were just not like i expected it to be. I argued with my room alot and just felt on the defense like the whole time there, just from alot of different situations and i thought i would grow better with my relationship with Christ at home without all the distractions. I kinda regret it only cause my decision was super hasty and i was super mad at the time but whatevvv everything happens for a reason and i also think me and Jesus really need time alone here in my room where i can really focus on him and his Word (i sound crazy lol) but yeaa me and Him know what i mean. secondly there is NO more hot rod cuz he was just an dog (Atomic Dogg-in my Madea voice lol) but me and Jeremy decided to move more seriously. i dont know tho just cause im not exactly pro-long term relationships, i actually hate them. but he's a marine and im in school so i wouldnt be able to see him anyway. and yeaa i cut and dyed my hair so there is no need to update for hair pics but im alllll natural. my hair is super curly now i love it lol.  theres just sooo much else thats changed in my life but thats really only what applies to me so yeaa..

MY TIME AT HOME

heyy loves!! so i have been on summer break for about a month and so far so good. i do admit i thought i wouldve been in way more stuff because i was having so much fun on breaks and stuff but its been pretty dead. the biggest thing that has happened is I GOT A CARRRR. it doesnt feel real because i have to get everything in set and im also leavin for OP in a week sooo yea but hopefully if everything goes my way. ill be able to bring it to school :))). things are still going good with my babe :) lol. he's been occupying most my time since i been home and baby its been a rollercoaster of emotions. I like him alot and since the way we connect and flow and have been inseperable, im crazy about him. ofcourse as sweet as he is, he's still a man and will fail me so its been pretty hard to check my feelings and keep a level headed.also for some reason, and i been feeling this way since like day -3 (lol). i really feel this is gonna be either a good experience or the biggest heartbreak. idk i can generally tell within the first couple times hangin with someone whether or not they might be around for long and i feel he will, i just dont know whether good or bad. but after a dumb couple of days and pettyness, im really feeling him still so yaaaaah we will see :-/. but yeaa on a better note opeezy will be here in a week.! crazy but exciting. imma miss hot rod (lol) like crazy but yeaa if its meant to be, itll be. i hope by the end of this 2months im sucha stud :P(ugh) lol  but forreal i hope i get a better and stronger faith in my lord and try to live a life pleasing to HIM!!!!!

so this guy..

so about this guy..well he's perfect lol. since ive been home we have been together non-stop. i realllly like him, i just wished things werent moving as fast as they were. but i cant wait till see how things play out..

quick update: May 4th-new guy

So i just wanna start by saying this is the freaking last day of school!!!  im officially a junior. well if i dont get kicked out seeing how i just BOMBED my spanish final and physiology smh..but at worse ill be APed..but anywhoodles the reason for this blog is just to remember and document this moment. So recently i met a guy on fb and let me start by saying supposedly 1 in 4 relationships start online in this era but its still embarrasing. and whats worse is that i hit him up cuz he liked all my pics and was a cutie lol but whatevv. but yeaa i fully expect it not to go anywhere but i just wanna remember this moment cuz like ever since we started talking and texting its been like non-stop smiles and giddiness and excitement. thats a HUGE thing for me cuz i rarely feel if that makes any sense. i feel like i just walk around numb and oblivious to things and feelings so its nice to feel. (i sound weird but i cant explain it). but yeaa i meet him forreal later on today or tomorrow and im fully expecting him to have like a cripple knee or hes retarded or something because things like this always happens to me. i end up liking a guy and something rediculous happens. I really dont think he would fit into Gods plan with my life so thats why i just know it will end up stupid like everyother guy i liked (i should really start videotaping my "love life" its seriously funny some of the stuff that happens to me, i need a MTV show) but yeaa a little about him that i grasped so far is like perfection. he's 22, a electrician own crib own car, no kids and single...too good to be true right. but yeaa and the things he says just hit me, like he was forreal raised right.  but ever since i typed him "if you went to merrillville why havent i seen yu" we have been talkin nonstop. from wakeup to sleep.  but nevertheless i am super excited to see how everything plays out. like its unbelievable the way he holds my attention. my other two theories is tht A: he in fact is perfect but doesnt like me (happens all the time) or B: he is perfect and we like eachother and have an amazing time together and i dont wanna leave ,and this is the devils trick to try to stop me from going to OP. but yeaa i cant wait to see how this goes. and also at home we have no wifi so its prob gon be a lil time built between different post...and i cant think of nothing else thats been goin on besides the usual b

But to be continued lol