let me first start off by saying i hate that term yolo..its just funny to me. i like saying it after stupid things but whatevv. so its like 6:40 am and i woke up cuz it felt someone was staring at me or sum..i hate that feeling. but yeaa yesterday was dubbed yolo day by me and lonnise for no reason lol. it just started when we were just yoloing around and ended up at the tattoo shop and i finally got my nose pierced! i looove it. it was a party so we went there also and idk i hated it. i thought i looked pretty cute and even had my freakin boobs out but niggas was not giving me the time of day. Last year when i was a freshmen, dudes was on my heels. i literally left every party with a new person i ended up talking to. this year nobody likes me lol. up till this point i just thought i was old news but ive come to the realization God be blocking lol. but forreal he do. it was these gorgeous alpha dudes there from another school and the wackest females was gettin chose. i was really pondering like ok since last year, im defnitly gettin thicker and ive started wearing make-up that be looking fye so its not me...its the dudes obviously. i got like really fed up by the time night was over. idk what is goin on with me cuz i neeever use to 1)compare my self to other girls really and 2) hate on another chick for gettin chose by a sexy dude. i had a convo a while back with my mom about how im gonna be alone forever and stuff like that cuz no one likes me and she made a comment that just kinda stuck with me about how God has favor on my life and how he is protecting me from unnecessary bull, i remembered this comin in the crib after the afterparty. God is sovereign and he wont put me in any temptations i cant get out of. I feel like lately i have been vulnerable and God is babying me as weird as that sound. its just like a million things could be going on or how easy it would be for me to meet a fine no good dude to knock me off my square and distract me from Him but i feel like he is literally shielding me from those things. If one of those sexy alpha dudes was like "yo baby yo" all in my ear aint no doubt i wouldve been all in they face, leaving to chill with them or sum. at the after party (wack) females was all on they laps drinkin and smoking and prob got it in with them, so lookin back im happy things played out the way it did and God knew what was best. I talked with my mommy and told her my thoughts and she was just like seriously its all God and a dude could see me notice how im pretty and not even know WHY in his head, he is not interested in me or want to get on with me,i hope she right...
but anywhoodles heres pics i like
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